tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16064274787340110922024-03-08T07:27:10.441-08:00The Dark and Light Side of MyselfThe inner workings of a 20 some year old over active mind.Damastarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18187361009066026367noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606427478734011092.post-32754226628556854602009-11-06T17:06:00.000-08:002009-11-06T17:14:49.691-08:00My one and onlySo its been about 3 weeks since i visited my love, and now she is going through some of the hardest times in her life, things that make her question herself among other things, but I am not there atm and it is very hard on her that I am not but I am able to do things for her should the need arise she need my help but its hard to get that point across at 2200miles away.<br /><br />But I have been working on my A+ certification that could air me a job in her area fairly quickly once I obtain it, I have been working on it increasingly faster as it is mostly things I know, but I do get stumped on things here and there (mostly the technical terms) and I think I could have this done by the end of next month, if that is the case, I am going to start looking into moving into the area as soon as possible.<br />My biggest problem is I don't know whether I should be looking for a house or an apartment, and do I buy or rent? It will be my first home of my own and my credit is basically on a complete even, not amazing but not bad.<br />Any ideas on which I should go after first?Damastarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18187361009066026367noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606427478734011092.post-45768335311229095082009-10-02T11:42:00.001-07:002009-10-02T11:48:13.591-07:00SomedaysSo today has been one of those up and down days, sometimes it happens, but we are getting through it, the woman I love more than the world is a bit scared of things, but then again I am afraid of losing such a wonderful woman in my life so we both have our fears.<br /><br />Well I am planning on going to GA for a visit and to show her how much she means to me and everything as well as to check on a lease for an apartment and to check out the houses in the area, and finally to see my 2 wonderful little girls that have been asking to meet me for awhile now.<br />She is scared though, for good reason of course, her past leads her to believe she isn't good enough and that I will leave (I would never leave her though).<br />I will be staying with her and everything, I just want to show her my love, so like what now are there any particular words she wants to hear? anything particular she wants to do? or should i just be myself through and through and hope she continues to love me?<br />I am always afraid I am going to screw up as I am sure people have noticed now hah<br /><br />Well enough of my ramblings for today, I will hit it back later!Damastarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18187361009066026367noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1606427478734011092.post-74065646016299927572009-09-27T21:27:00.000-07:002009-09-27T21:29:10.433-07:00The First Post!So I am new to this, writing out my thoughts has always been somewhat hard to do at times so it may take some time or I could end up just jumping right into it, who knows lol<br /><br />I am looking forward to it though, you never know what things you can think of if you look at your own thoughts.Damastarhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/18187361009066026367noreply@blogger.com1